Life: Teaching, Traveling, Serving Jesus and more

Where to begin... Looking back at 2022 there was so much pain, growth, and change. It was not my best year but I know it could have been worse. 2022 brought so much change in my life that at times it was hard to breathe. I don't like change I love routines and structures and 2022 was filled with changes. Change 2022 was a year of change. I knew that it would be and I knew that would be a struggle for me. So many things were going to change from my job to my home and those were big things but also things I could plan for and prepare for.  However 2022 brought more change that just that. Things I though would change didn't change. Other things that I didn't think would change did. There are have been so many days where there were more tears than my eyes were dry. The changes that happened were not always easy for me.  I felt called into more of a leadership role in my career and that change while it is something I know that I was called to was still hard. I decided to stay fo...

(This is a late post and I wasn't sure I really wanted to share it. It is from August 28)  11 years ago I was living a dream. It was my wedding day and all the plans and preparation had been done. The weather was beautiful and it was everything I imagined it would be. However this morning I woke up in full on tears. That dream day was amazing as weddings are magical. Sadly after the wedding came the reality of marriage and it was hard. There were so many days of feeling unworthy and not good enough. That I wasn't enough for this person who had stood in front of 150 people and said that he loved me and wanted to be with me forever. Promises were made that were never kept. The pain is still very real even almost 8 years later. Every year on this date I wonder if it will ever hurt less or if the pain will ever go away. The pain feels incredibly real today when I woke up crying. I knew exactly what the tears were from. As much as I know that pain comes when healing is happening I s...